So, it’s been a long, but enlightening few weeks since I last wrote anything.
Well, to start with, my old delivery job turned into a dead end. The new boss said there wasn’t anything for me, which was disappointing, but to be expected.
I got the impression that there might be something in the New Year though, so I’ve still got a little light at the end of the tunnel, which is good.
So once that was knocked on the head and I went full steam ahead with the other delivery job offer I had, which starts on 14th Nov.
The one that’s only 4 days a week, for 6 weeks and requires me to hire a van and get insurance etc.
The pay should still be exactly the minimum I need to pay the bills, so it’s good enough to get me working again.
There is a potential full-time position in the New Year with it, so as long as I don’t fuck it up, I’ve got a full-time job again.
The only pain with this delivery driver job is that the pay is so spread out.
I think because I’m working for a company who is getting sub-contract work from another company, the pay is spread out.
So I don’t get paid for the first 3 weeks of the job, which is fine, like a fulltime job you work a month in hand then get paid.
However, at the end of the 3rd week, I’ll only receive the 1st weeks pay as the invoice period is 14 days. So to make sure I get some money at the end of Nov I’ll only be able to invoice the first week of work I do.
But then I’ve been told that there will only be another 2 payments before Christmas and the rest will be paid after.
Which is a big shit.
But thankfully the new boss did mention that I should be able to sub some money from my earnings before Christmas, so I should be able to make up the shortfall and at least receive a months money before Christmas, to see me through to the New Year.
Anyway, it’s a little complicated financially at the moment, but things should work out once I’m into the New Year.
In the meantime, I’ve bitten the bullet and sold a few possessions to raise some cash.
I had a long think about a few things over the last few weeks and I can’t and don’t want to borrow any more money from family so I’ve had to realise that money is more important than possessions right now.
The few things I’ve sold have raised nearly a months worth of money, so it’s by no means been an easy decision, as I’ve had to really think about the things I sold, their value to me in materialistic terms and monetary terms.
The things I’ve sold I should be able to obtain again in the future, if I want to or need to, but right now their value to me means more in monetary terms than anything else.
With the unexpected breaking down of our car and it needing a fair amount of work doing on it. Added to some family coming to visit out of the blue and us needing money to entertain them on top of the obvious point of Christmas just being around the corner and the added expenses that come with that.
Although that later point is an expense that I would spend out on regardless of the situation, but not having any money has meant it’s loomed larger than normal on the horizon.
These have all meant a large chunk of money required right when it is least expected.
But then monetary expenses tend to happen like that. They come out of the blue.
Hence my anger at myself for not being prepared for it all. Or at least being prepared, then putting myself in the situation that meant I was no longer prepared for it.
Pah! Fucking tosh, I need to go lift some weights and distress.
Long story short, things are looking up again, but it’s certainly been a difficult few months. All of my own making, which doesn’t make it any easier to handle, so I can at least understand myself in where I have gone for the last month or two!
I think I might be getting a split personality pmsl.
I’ve been consistent on the lifting side of things the last few weeks, which is a positive.
I’ve done some form of weight lifting every weekday and I’m feeling much better mentally for it. I’ve also been out for a bike ride or long walk and run on the treadmill consistently the last few weeks too.
I can feel that the mist that had descended over my mind a few weeks ago has definitely lifted and I can see clearly how I got into my current situation and more importantly, how to get out of it.
It takes a while to get into motion I guess. Having had the almost epiphany like mind fuck a few weeks ago. Right up to today the momentum has been building and it finally feels like things are back on track again.
I just need to get back to a regular work routine now and things will be pucker.
Having time to do things that you enjoy is great, but when you have all day, every day, those things seem to lose their enjoyment, especially when you realise to continue to enjoy them requires…. money!
I’ve quickly learnt that most of the things I like to do require money, which at the moment I’m only capable of earning through a day job.
I’ve tried a few other ways of making money, but I’ve not found anything I can either stick with (due to lack of passion for it) or that I can continue with a small amount of money.
Hey ho, it is what it is, something will come along eventually I’m sure of it. I just need to make sure that we’re in a financial position to take advantage of it.
Until next time…