So then, all you hundreds of 30 odd readers of the blog (you can comment you know, I don’t bite … much!) the moment you have been waiting for has arrived – what the hell are we doing now?
You’ve read about us deciding to go to Canada, then you read about us changing our minds and deciding to go to New Zealand, and now here we are and you read last night that we’ve changed our minds yet again – what the hell is going on, right?
Well, I can only say that its been mayhem for us – we have talked so much over the last few weeks, come to so many different conclusions that it turned out we were settling on which ever one gave us the appearance of the most adventure.
But was that what we really wanted?
Well as it turns out YES – but just not in another country.
Let me explain…
When we decided that we were going to Canada, it was partly because I have an aunt and uncle out there, but also because it was so far away from the UK, and so different that it all seemed like a grand adventure we were could go on.
Alas, it all fell to pieces when we realised we could go to New Zealand instead.
We found out about a working holiday visa we could get through a company called Bunac, and all hell broke loose and we were off planning to go to NZ in 12 months time.
And that was the case until last night – yet again, something happened, or in this instance someone said something, and off we went trying to recreate the big bang!
And it wasn’t pretty let me tell you now.
Yesterday, last night and then today we have probably had some of the deepest and most meaningful conversations I think we have had in our 13 years together!
We’ve shouted at each other, called each other childish names and even threatened to go our separate ways at one point – yes it got ‘that’ intense!
But here we are now, having talked about every possible future scenario – and we are still here together, and we now know where we really, truly want to go in the next 10 years.
Right here in the UK.
Yep, we’ve thought about travelling to the other side of the world to find what we were looking for – and yet we have realised what we want is right here in the UK of all places!
And what are we doing here in the UK?
We’ve decided that what we really want is to work for ourselves running a soft fruit and kitchen garden plant business.
We realised that working at the apple orchard, we get the most enjoyment from working with the soft fruit and kitchen garden plants then we do anything else – especially the apples, DAG NAMMIT we hate working with sooooo many apples, 30+ acres of them!
We remembered that 4-5 years ago our plan was to be self employed, but we didn’t have an idea as to what do be self employed in.
When we couldn’t come up with anything we gave up, until now.
We came to the orchard, and have worked here for few years now, not realising that actually this is what makes us the most happiest and this is what we should be doing self employed.
With this in mind we then realised that why go to the other side of the world to do this – because that is what we would have needed to do to be as happy as we wanted to be, when we can in fact do it right here in the UK.
It will be a damn site easier doing it in our home country, then it would be in a foreign country, where we aren’t even residents either!
And to top it all off we realised that we wanted to share a lot more with our family and friends.
We haven’t exactly been your social type of people over the last few years – but then that’s because we’ve deliberately shunned social situations etc to involve ourselves completely in this land based lifestyle, so that we could find out if it was something we really truly wanted to do for life.
And although we’ve known we want to do this for life we haven’t made the effort to bring our friends and family back into our lives more and in fact we hadn’t even really thought about them all that much when thinking about what we wanted to do next.
We are that single minded that we always put ourselves first, but it seems that we had gone too far this time, and we hadn’t even considered that actually we ‘should’ be involving our family and friends in our new lifestyles.
Because it will be good for them to get a more land based lifestyle into their own lives.
I can say this with 100% confidence because without any kind of land based lifestyle we cannot be truly happy.
We all need some kind of contact with nature and the countryside, it’s what keeps us grounded and it’s what keeps us sane.
I don’t care who you are, you are not a human being if you think you can do without nature or the countryside – or you are just plain clinically insane and should be sectioned.
Having watched from the sides as family and friends slowly destroyed themselves by not keeping in contact with nature or the countryside, both of us have realised that its time for this to stop.
And we can help by coming to the realisation that in ourselves ‘now’ is the time for us to step it up – we need to get out of our feeling of needing to get away from the UK to somewhere that has greener grass and instead realise that here in the UK we can do anything and everything we have ever wanted, and we can help other people have more fulfilling lives along the way.
We want to involve family and friends in our plant based business, and we know that they want to too.
But nearly every single one of them doesn’t have the balls to step it up and start their own business’s based on the land, predominantly because they don’t have the skills – well, that’s where we come in.
You see, our mad hatter idea of leaving the city 4-5 years ago and getting land based skills is starting to actually make sense now!
We are finally starting to see the whole picture of where we have been heading and where we now need to go:
We’ve always thought that to feel free in a job, we needed to be self employed.
We’ve wanted to have land-based skills for a long time – we now have them.
We’ve wanted to start our own business for a long time.
We’ve wanted to get closer to our friends and family for a while but not known how to.
All those statements can now be completed, brought together, all under one fell swoop of us having the balls to step it up.
By deciding now is the time, that here in the UK is the place where we now make a future for ourselves – and it has to start right now.
We’ve come to the realisation that we now have the base skills needed to move forward, we need some more in-depth knowledge on exactly what needs doing, but that will come with the next stage of our new plan (to be revealed in another post) and that there is no time like the present to actually make something happen.
If not now, then when??
So – bloody hell, where was I, sorry if I’ve lost you – HELLO … is there anyone still reading this war & peace effort … fuck sake I can ramble on, apologies dear reader!
The gist of this all is that we are now starting to build our plan of running our own plant based business growing soft fruit, kitchen garden plants and probably herbs too.
We’re working towards becoming self employed.
We’re working towards becoming closer with our friends and family.
And best of all we’re doing it all right here in the good old United Kingdom.
Regardless of what we think of the UK, and all it’s negatives, it also has an amazing amount of good things going for it.
And really we need to forget about the negative side of things and move onto the positive things – make do with what we can and get help with the rest, everything else will sort itself out.
Excuse me one second…..
Fuck me, bollocks, piss face, hairy fa……..
Ahem, right, apologies for the vulgarity – I’m not a foul mouthed brute normally, I just needed to get that out … that’s how I feel right now having realised we have wasted a number of years looking for something that was right here in-front of our noses.
Siiigh, I’ve been gorging on chocolate cakes and fizzy pop (don’t drink alcohol) this evening, and I think I am starting to come down from the sugar rush.
So – keep an eye on the blog if you want to read what we’re up to next – hint: looking for house/flat to rent, looking for a different job (need different skills – it will be explained in another post), saving money, looking for land/businesses to rent or buy, starting up our new business, running the business, getting old, dieing …. preferably with a lot of fun thrown in amongst it all, heh! 🙂
We’re also getting our shit together with regards to our health and fitness, for too long we have let ourselves tread water, thinking that naturally letting things be was the way forward.
So I’m using my knowledge of health and fitness (self loathing guinea pig for 10 years!) to put together a plan for us both and I’ll be talking about it in future posts as it’s something I am very passionate about but have never shared with many people.
In between all that?
I spose I can always talk about the bollocks that is supposedly global warming and/or our fiat monetary system, precious metals or the pile of shit that we call supermarkets.
Dag nammit, I think I may have awoken something in me that maybe I shouldn’t have – it’s now time to show the real me (and Dena), the bare bones, the guts n all, I’m not sure you’ll like it, but it really does feel like the ‘right’ direction.
Until next time…