I felt like I needed to write some shit down today, so this is a fucking weird one as normal, looking back over what I’ve written below whilst writing this beginning part seems like I’m reading the thoughts of someone else.
Where the fuck did this come from midget?
See I’m talking to myself again ha. Oh well, keeps me sane whilst the world is losing it’s mind. Or maybe it’s the other way around these days.
Delivering parcels in 2021 is only 10 days old, but it’s been the same as 2020 so far for this parcel delivering midget. Well fucking busy.
It’s to be expected as it is the New Year for a start and people always have Christmas money to spend, plus January sales are here and of course we still have fucking Covid-19 too.
One thing that has changed for me already this year, is my route. Without any prior warning or discussion with me or other drivers as to what might work, mine and a few others areas have been changed by management.
I’ve had the prison and M.O.D deliveries taken off me and the main urban area I had and I’ve now been given a few different villages and a different urban area to deliver to.
Don’t mind so much about the change of villages as I enjoy rural routes, but the new urban area I deliver to is bigger than my old one, really condensed and always busy regardless of holidays etc.
I’ve still got half of my old route, which is good as at least I know that really well. I’ve now got 12 villages in total instead of 14 and my 1 main urban area has grown in size by 2 fold I’d say.
Overall I’ll have more deliveries to do throughout the day, however, because the urban area is condensed I can plough through it quicker than the computer gives me time to.
Due to the company I work for bringing in a new automated routing system last year (which is shite) and me having no say in what way the route is done, I have to do the route in the way the awesome (not) computer tells me to and it gives me more time for each delivery than is needed, so I can generally deliver quicker than it says I can and therefore I get ahead of my time schedule and can take a few breaks throughout the day now.
Well, hopefully I can anyway, we’ll see how it goes as this first week was shite due to us still being locked down due to Covid-19 here in the UK and so the overall volume of deliveries is still way higher than it normally is.
And until it dies down I won’t get a true picture of how busy the route really is, but even with the parcel volumes being as high as they are, I still think I’ll regularly get through it each day with time to spare.
I don’t like to fuck around delivering like some of our drivers do. They make sure they take their time in delivering, the exact time or a little more than the computer gives them time for. That way they don’t get too many deliveries, clever, but lazy, the fuckwits.
As it is, the company isn’t questioning the time frame they have for each delivery, but I think at some point in the near future they will reduce the time and there will be some proper moaning.
Ha, lazy fuckers have it coming.
I’m not a corporate kiss ass, I don’t work hard because I’m told to, I work hard because it’s the right thing to do for me mentally and physically in the long term.
And ultimately it makes me feel good.
Fuck letting a company change the way I feel in the long term. Sure sometimes I let a company change how I feel in the short term, but that’s because I choose to, I allow it to and can at any moment change that.
But long term it will never happen. I always think of myself first long term and I always do things to make me feel good/happy in the long term.
Which you’d think these moaning drivers would be doing too, thinking of themselves long term, but clearly they’re not, all are responsible for their own feelings, but seemingly allow this company to control them and how they ultimately feel in the long term, well short term too as they’re always the same.
Weak minded fuck wits.
I don’t understand people who say their day job is like a prison sentence. If you hate your job, that’s your fault, not the companies fault. Change jobs you pussy. Yes it really is that simple, you just think some jobs are below you.
Sure some people have special circumstances that keep them in certain jobs. Fine, change your mindset then because no-one has ultimate control over that other than you.
Change your mindset and eventually you’ll be able to change jobs too.
I’ve always been a happy positive outlook kind of person, even in some of literally the shittiest jobs out there.
I’ve cleaned the shit stains off of toilets and the hardened sick off floors.
I’ve picked up shit filled bin bags and bin bags filled with dead animals.
I’ve worked on fruit and veg farms in the shittiest of weathers, pissing down for days torrential rain and freezing cold for weeks in the winters.
I’ve worked in factories with my mind doing nothing all day but counting things whizzing past on a conveyor belt.
I’ve worked at computers typing data into a screen for hours, days and months on end.
And through all of it, I’ve always looked on the positive side of things, always had a smile for everyone, always willing to have a laugh.
All because I’ve chosen too, no-one else has decided what my attitude will be, just me.
Now I’m working just as hard as I ever have, in a day job like parcel delivering.
I get to keep fit physically as well as mentally.
I see that as a win win.
The rest, meh, just shit I ignore.
The way I see it is that I get paid to use my body to lift and move things all day thereby keeping fit and strong (as long as my diet is good enough) and I get paid to keep my mind active and sharp by driving a vehicle around safely and professionally.
Some people look down on delivery drivers, I’ve met them and still meet them on a daily basis. Although Covid-19 has reduced that quite significantly, there are still people who I meet (deliver to mostly) that I can tell have a lowly opinion of delivery drivers.
That’s fine, they’re fuckwits, the world is full of fuckwits, I don’t give them any special treatment though, everyone gets treated the same, seemingly rich or poor, rude or nice.
And I always do things because I want to, not because I’m told to. And I think that makes a big difference to how I feel about myself.
I don’t offer a smile at the door with your parcel because the company tells me to. I do it because I like to and it makes me happy.
I don’t treat your package with respect and care because the company tells me to. I do it because it’s how I want my packages to be treated.
I don’t drive with disrespect for other road users or pedestrians, again not because the company tells me to, but because that’s how I want to be treated.
I also don’t bring any negative outside influences from my life into my day job. If my life outside of work is shitty, it stays outside of work. Again, not because the company wants that (they do actually, its just they can’t say it because of weak minded fuckers) but because I don’t want negativity to lead my life.
I’m always positive, always smiling, always having a laugh. Because life is meant to be fun.
Sure negative things happen to me, all the fucking time. But I choose not to react to them negatively. Well, in the long term anyway.
Short term, sure I allow negative things to get to me. But ultimately I choose to allow them to get to me.
I’m aware when negativity is becoming more powerful around me, some particularly negative people have come into my life, or something is effecting me negatively that shouldn’t be and eventually when it becomes close to overwhelming me, I choose to step back from it and turn on some positivity.
Basic positivity helps in any situation. Being thankful for the basics has always been my go to.
If I have food in my stomach, clothes on my back and a roof over my head, the rest doesn’t matter. I can be happy and positive no matter what.
Some people might not be able to, perhaps they need more life experiences, more shit to happen to them to toughen them up mentally, because if one things for sure, there are some proper mentally weak people in the world in 2021.
A lot of people seem to think that everything happens to them, that life just happens and they blame others for it.
But ultimately we choose everything that happens to us, doesn’t matter if it is negative or positive. We have made choices that have lead us to this very moment in time.
Most are just not conscious of making a decision which often means someone else has made one for them.
Fuck that shit. Only you have control of yourself.
Where the fuck are you going with this midget? Why am I now writing to myself, is my head that fucked I don’t know how many of me there are now.
Fuck, that’s a scary thought there, more of me then just me in the world, ha ha, the world is fucked.
Oh wait, it already is. Ha.
Looking back to the past I can see shit that has happened but have never been this conscious of the effects it has on the world around me. Is that because I’ve never really been me, until now.
Well that’s true I guess, until this very moment I was someone else. Right now I’m me, but yesterday and tomorrow I was and will be someone else.
Yeah ok midget, trying to be deep and meaningful, tit.
That’s my mind dumped, I feel relieved at writing this all down, as normal for a mind dump post.
Right, it’s time for some movement then some food and drink, I’ve been sat here for 2hrs or so writing this.
I can feel my body needs to move, I think some basic bodyweight exercises are in order, chin ups, push ups and some squats I think. No major weightlifting this week as I had planned, my body and mind has felt pretty whacked every night so far.
Guess it has been the first week on a new route, a lot of new things to take in. I have done some basic bodyweight stuff 3 times this week though, so that’s maintenance level at least.
Until next time…